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Tuesday, 07 July 2009

  • Chariot Race

    Pull up your horses before they turn and run,

    Don’t lose grip of your ropes, it’s just begun.
    We'll outrun the best; like a gladiator fest-

    There’s no room for humanity in this contest.

     

    Hold too tight, you want too much;

    These ropes start burning from your touch.

    Don’t let go, he says, she says.

    I left this path for you to trace.

     

    Your gift is mine,
    You are divine,
    We’re tracing laps around your mind.
    Four-four beats;

    And the sound of their feet,

    Life is toxic – will you be my alkaline?

     

    You pump adrenalin in your soul
    Hooves trample on all your self-control.
    Love comes and goes, you can’t look back,

    Only one love can stay, and it’s for this track.

     

    I let you step in my chariot car,
    your presence fuels tobacco in my cigar.

    We ride, and it feels like eternity.

    Until you pull the cord on my dignity.

     

    Think before you act,
    But I’m too needy for that.
    It takes two people to hurt and two hands to clap.
    You are kryptonite;
    You’re why I hold on too tight,

    Baby, you’re the chipped graphite shaking up my horse-ride.

     

    Horses run too fast to feed on romance.

    Chariots are too cramp to hold a second chance.

    We’re neck to neck,
    But we’re hardly friends.
    You see,

    I ride a chariot race, and this is how we dance.
  • and that's the way life rolls out.
    the best decisions you'll ever make are also the hardest to decide.
    and if you took the easy way out you'd just be chicken.
    i really wish i could construct exactly what i feel.
    i'm sorry i disregarded all that i already knew and made the same mistake as i did before.
    i really should have known better.
    and i hope you don't get hurt.
    please, please don't get hurt beyond this point. ):
    i'm really not worth it.

     

Monday, 06 July 2009

  • the sad thing we realize about life is that everyone has to take shit, and there's really no way out.
    even those who you always thought were so fortunate and respectable get hurt.
    and this really pisses me off.

    the jealous and childish things some people do really repulse me.
    if only you knew half of what shes feeling because of you.
    maybe you'll think twice next time you go ahead to ruin people's lives.
    if i find out who you are I WILL BREAK YOU.
    AND MAKE YOU EXPERIENCE TWICE THAT DOSAGE OF INNER DESTRUCTION YOU MADE MY FRIENDS FEEL.

    screw you, fucker.
    ITS NOT FUNNY.

Saturday, 04 July 2009

  • the happy and the sad.

    apart from the extreme relief of post cts and pulling self back from the brink of insanity, here's a tribute to one who has been a legend.

    i just can't help really feeling for MJ, especially after watching his videos and realizing what a revolutionary character he was in the world of dance. what he had was a gift, and it really is such a pity that the media and the papparazzi slowly stressed him to his end. not to say that all his actions were acceptable, but i really wonder was going through his head. nuff said, i have never paid attention to or really went to watch his videos before he passed on. but i finally did, a bit too late, and i am completely blown away right now. his stage presence is AMAZING (just listen to the crowd cheers), and you just dont see as much heart in people's dancing as you could see in his performances anymore.

    IF YOU HAVE NOT SEEN THESE YOU ARE COMPLETELY MISSING OUT SOME OF THE FEW MOMENTS OF PURE TALENT AND MAGIC THAT EVER EXISTED.



Friday, 12 June 2009

  • the new to do list.

    1) start internalizing the things you're mugging.
    2) stop being so hard on yourself. you can do it if only you RELAX.
    3) SPEND LESS MONEY, DAMMIT.
    4) eat more healthily.
    5) exercise? which i havent done in forever.
    6) POSSESS SELF CONFIDENCE IMMEDIATELY. ): this is getting very bad. today i sorta made friends with this girl, and she was so quiet so i got really retardedly nervous and started compulsively talking a whole lot of irrelevant crap. then i felt so very silly afterwards. and its not like she was intimidating you know wth. i have got to be CRAZY.

    i don't know why this insecurity complex gets so bad when its the holidays. i suppose with more time on my hands and less people to talk to, you really just start going crazy bit by bit. and im getting freaking stressed out. i keep doing non productive mugging. tried to do SEA hist and then realised i was essentially copying everything off the same set of notes and i should have just MUGGED it instead. wasted the whole day.

    keep getting mad at myself for being unproductive and retarded and inferior, then get mad for being so insecure, and then get mad for being so mad at myself. am i actually making sense here? if there's one thing i hate about holidays, its feeling like this. really wish somebody who can just sit and UNDERSTAND what im feeling because i dont understand it myself.  and not just tell me to concentrate on mugging or that its just the stress talking. i probably sound damn paranoid and uptight, which i could possibly be, which sucks. but it really is unavoidable and its hell to go through.

    someone give me a source of relaxation NOW.
    i accept cash. :D

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