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Tuesday, 29 September 2009

  • NEW MUSIC SOURCE! for the few people who used to come to my blog for the playlist. think my taste took a bit of a turn though, not sure if yall will still like it ><

    anyways, no better way to waste away your post-prelim period than to SHOP and EAT and hang out with your BESTEST FRIENDS <3

    spent the last day of the papers at ivy's house with sining, watching a bunch of hilarious youtube videos, and having a great dinner cooked by her mum, as usual. then had a heart to heart talk with sining in the train on the way home. love those babes, it never fails to amaze me how we can manage to spend absolutely minimal quality friendship time together and yet come back and seem like we never stopped hanging out. if they were guys i think this'd be a very effective long term relationship. ROFL. but of course, VERY WEIRD THOUGHT. scrap that.

    met jeanne at the safra and completely caught up over a cup of teh. talked about almost EVERYTHING in life and her absolutely unfathomable taste in guys. funniest part of the conversation went something like this: 

    J: im really close to him and we're very good friends. and he's quite good looking and popular in school but somehow i just dont like him in that way leh.

    S: WHY! he's so nice to you, you're good friends and you even think hes good looking!

    J: (pause) aiyah, YOU KNOW....... he's like such a DECENT GUY.

    and this is when i really laughed damn loud until the people in the bowling alley probably all accidentally threw their balls into the longkang. my dearr you never fail to amuse me. try to start liking people who can appreciate the immense amount of care you're willing to offer, pleaseplease. ;P plus, i also conclude that I CANNOT WAIT TO SEE THESE VERY INTERESTING PEOPLE FOR MYSELF. *winkwink*

    shopping with vivian in bugis! =D retail therapy truly provides a straight road to pure joy. as well as being truly embarassing in public, like having an unknowingly loud and bimbotic conversations that i can only do with you ((: LOVE YOU GIRLL BERY BERY MUCH. bought a whole lot of cheap and worth it stuff with my brithday money. i now have a killer LBD for 20 bucks, a vest for 10 and shorts for 15 bucks. shorts shopping an absolute sad experience for me. while vivie pulls herself easily into a pair of S sized shorts, i learnt the harsh truth that I AM A LARGE. am pretty depressed to learn that i am a fat ass, why does flesh not travel to more flattering areas of the body. in pure denial, i have also come to a very unsubstantial conclusion that sitting on your bum all day long to mug for prelims has been the cause of this. however this also means that mugging for A levels will then make me an uber fat ass. so vivi as of now you no longer can say im skinnier than you, which is complete bull by the way. because while you're proportionately shaped i have a spoon for hips.

    this, though, is all in good humour, so dont take me seriously=) hope everyone's been taking a well deserved break. much love to everyone, and a reminder to stay happy, i promise it pulls you through the days. (:

Monday, 21 September 2009

  • Set me free, leave me be. I don't want to fall another moment into your gravity.
    Here I am and I stand so tall, just the way I'm supposed to be.
    But you're on to me and all over me.

    I live here on my knees as I
    Try to make you see that you're
    Everything I think I need here on the ground.
    But you're neither friend nor foe though I
    Can't seem to let you go.
    The one thing that I still know is that you're keeping me down.

    -Sara Bareilles

Saturday, 12 September 2009

Thursday, 10 September 2009

  • wow.
    i feel sufficiently stupid and slightly disappointed right now.
    i don't even know why i even had my hopes up in the first place.
    maybe my mind is set on auto-pilot and i was banking on the closest thing to hope that i could find in life at this very stage.
    haha but you know what, i don't even have it in me to chastise myself. i think it's just so funny that sometimes im just too fanatical for my own good. xD

     

Friday, 04 September 2009

  • yesterday was kind of the greatest nightmare come true.
    but at this point, for some reason im calmer.
    ivy and sining's words stung, that i have to want to do something about my problems and if i keep feeling like this its only going to be a self-fulfilling prophecy.
    and suddenly i just found myself subconsciously trying to block out what they said, and i wondered why i was trying to dig a hole for myself and stay there.
    its always somewhat easier to hinge on your failures, but it's unnecessary and inconsequential.
    acknowledge that we have flaws. we're not perfect, and i for example am terrible with case study, the way our econs tuition teacher billy says hes terrible at physics. but that does not mean we are any less brilliant.
    learn from your mistakes, HAVE CONFIDENCE IN YOURSELF.
    it's going to be hard, maybe the healing process might be slow. but even if i fuck up i think i learnt more about life and myself than most others.

    you and i, we'll make it through to laugh at this day.

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